Wind

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Night falls early. If you are in a windowless room, you become aware of the darkening subconsciously, as the lights inside seem somehow to change in color or intensity. Gradually you become filled with a feeling that you are in the wrong place. The clock on the wall reads 4:23, and you know this to be true. Still, in your mind it is much later than this. You should be home now, surrounded by the warm lights you are accustomed to, surrounded by your familiar things, safe and stationary until tomorrow. This spectral feeling fidgets around inside you, breaking your concentration. You glance at the clock more often than you would like to, struggling to stay interested in what you are doing. Your back is turned toward the door.
From behind you comes a noise unlike anything you have heard before. It is the sound of the sun setting; the sound of a holy wind; the sound of an air duct falling apart; the sound of smooth thunder; the sound thunder aspires to; the sound you would have heard if the light had not killed you. Your eyes widen. You are paralyzed until the sound passes, and you realize it was a sound that could not have occurred under any other circumstances. As you begin to recover, you look breathlessly at the others in the room. They did not hear it. They wait impatiently for the day to end.

Realism

"Invalides de Guerre Jouant aux Cartes" ("War Cripples Playing Cards") by Otto Dix, 1920

Click to read an article from the August 6, 1934 issue of Time Magazine about Otto Dix.



"I had to experience how someone beside me suddenly falls over and is dead and the bullet has hit him squarely. I had to experience that quite directly. I wanted it. I'm therefore not a pacifist at all - or am I? - perhaps I was an inquisitive person. I had to see all that for myself. I'm such a realist, you know, that I have to see everything with my own eyes in order to confirm that it's like that. I have to experience all the ghastly, bottomless depths for life for myself; it's for that reason that I went to war, and for that reason I volunteered."

Otto Dix c. 1920

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What follows is an example of a painting that is almost photorealistic. In the space filled by the almost, there is some kind of magic which makes paintings in this style feel more real than reality itself.

Oswald Achenbach, S. Pietro in Vincoli, 1883

What is the difference?

Mohandas "Mahatma" Gandhi



To which groups are our identities opposed? Who do we place outside of ourselves so that we may draw a boundary around ourselves and know that boundary to be safe? There is no mystery in ourselves; we know what we are not. I know what I am not--I am not you. At least I am not you. There are five castes.

There are five senses. Everything you perceive must come through one of these or it is a fantasy. There are seven colors in the rainbow. A wave of light stretches from red to violet in six violent jerks as if it is falling down the stairs.

An evicted Roma family (Budapest, 2000)

- Tell me more about the village where your grandmother lives. - It is a very nice village, 120 kilometers from here. There is a lake on the edge of a forest. - How many people live there? - It is a small village, 3,000 people. And no gypsies!

I have been thinking ...
I have been thinking of the difference between water
and the waves on it. Rising,
water's still water, falling back,
it is water, will you give me a hint
how to tell them apart?

Because someone has made up the word
"wave," do I have to distinguish it
from water?

There is a Secret One inside us;
the planets in all the galaxies
pass through his hands like beads.

That is a string of beads one should look at with luminous eyes.

-Kabir, 13th Century

On boiling

"I show you light now. It burns bright forever.
No more blue tomorrows. You’re on high now, love."

People overthink all sorts of things. The truth boils underneath like an underground lake.

Art causes the soul to boil. Interpreting and reading and thinking about this boiling is a way of turning the heat down. "Cinema is a language that can say abstractions."

I. Instructions: Read the items in the list one at a time. Close your eyes and picture each one vividly as you can. Imagine it in whatever context comes to you. Picture it with every feeling it brings with it. When your picture is complete, count to ten. Then move on to the next thing on the list. snow dark night sky red brick a silhouette in a window white lights on a marble theatre copper-green statues shadows on the wall

II. This is an experiment in showing you the inside of my head. It is an explanation, but not the kind you find in books. Dreams are an explanation of your mind. This is something like a dream I have had every day for the last week. It is not poetry unless the inside of my head is poetry. Imagine asking for directions in a country where no one speaks your language. You have to communicate somehow. When you open your mouth, sounds come out. You disassociate from yourself because you are too embarrassed to take responsibility for what you are saying. You watch yourself as if from the outside. You gesture wildly. It is raining. There is no time to think about it. You speak from your gut. Somehow, you make yourself understood.

Strange divination

(What follows refers to the I Ching, or Book of Changes, an ancient Chinese divinatory & philosophical text. Here is a wonderful introduction to the I Ching; the section on moving lines is particularly relevant.)

An interesting reading: Lake over Lake, all 6 lines moving, therefore changing to Mountain over Mountain.

#58 - Joy/Pleasing/Joyous Pleasure THE IMAGE Lakes resting one on the other: The image of THE JOYOUS. Thus the superior man joins with his friends For discussion and practice. A lake evaporates upward and thus gradually dries up; but when two lakes are joined they do not dry up so readily, for one replenishes the other. it is the same in the field of knowledge. Knowledge should be a refreshing and vitalizing force. It becomes so only through stimulating intercourse with congenial friends with whom one holds discussion and practices application of the truths of life. in this way learning becomes many-sided and takes on a cheerful lightness, whereas there is always something ponderous and one-sided about the learning of the self-taught. THE LINES [selections] 2. We often find ourselves associating with inferior people in whose company we are tempted by pleasures that are inappropriate for the superior man. To participate in such pleasures would certainly bring remorse, for a superior man can find no real satisfaction in low pleasures. 3. Those who lack inner stability and therefore need amusement, will always find opportunity of indulgence. They attract external pleasures by the emptiness of their natures. Thus they lose themselves more and more, which of course has bad results. 4. Only when he clearly recognizes that passion brings suffering, can he make up his mind to turn away from the lower pleasures and strive for the higher.

#52 - Keeping Still THE IMAGE Mountains standing close together: The image of KEEPING STILL. Thus the superior man Does not permit his thoughts To go beyond his situation The heart thinks constantly. this cannot be changed, but the movements of the heart - that is, a man’s thoughts - should restrict themselves to the immediate situation. All thinking that goes beyond this only makes the heart sore. THE LINES [selections] 1. The beginning is the time of few mistakes. ... Not yet influenced by obscuring interests and desires, one sees things intuitively as they really are. A man who halts at the beginning, so long as he has not yet abandoned truth, finds the right way. 3. ...in exercises in meditation and concentration, one ought not to try to force results. Rather, calmness must develop naturally out of a state of inner composure. If one tries to induce calmness by means of artificial rigidity, meditation will lead to very unwholesome results. 5. ...injudicious speech easily leads to situations that subsequently give much cause for regret. However, if a man is reserved in speech, his words take ever more definite form, and every occasion for regret vanishes. [Cf. line 2 in #58.] 6. One is at rest, not merely in a small, circumscribed way in regard to matters of detail, but one has also a general resignation in regard to life as a whole, and this confers peace and good fortune in relation to every individual matter.

There is a wide difference of opinion on how best to interpret moving lines, particularly multiple moving lines. Six moving lines presents an interesting case. Is the second hexagram more important? Is there an implication that the first hexagram is a warning, something to be avoided?

In this example I have found it most useful to interpret the change chronologically. Joy can be achieved in the short term, but must eventually give way to Stillness. In striving after Joy, one should always remember that Stillness is on the horizon, making Joy possible.

With regard to my present situation and this particular consultation, it also makes sense to see Joy as something that can be achieved within stillness, without the necessity of major movement or change. One must recognize that movement is not necessary for happiness. Indeed, if one is unhappy, it might even be better to purposely keep still and make as few life changes so that the external forces (warned about in #58) don't get in the way or confuse the situation. Once joy has been achieved, life changes can be productive because they won't be based in brute force (warned about in both hexagrams).

(I Ching text from the Wilhelm-Baynes translation, as transcribed at theAbysmal.)

To be gifted is to be lost, unless one sees clearly in time to level the slopes instead of sliding down them all. How to conquer a gift should be the main study of anyone who recognizes one in himself
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And what a complex matter it is to be clear-sighted, since gifts assume the first shape they meet and this shape might perchance be the right one.

-Jean Cocteau, La Difficulté d'Etre